I am not a writer. I can write, but I wouldn’t consider myself a writer. Putting thoughts on paper (or in this case text) is extremely difficult for me. Perhaps it was the way I was raised or my past experiences but I’ve become unable to share and articulate my own thoughts in an expressive manner. Instead, I tend to keep things inside my head and forget about it.

As I was growing from a child to young adult, it wasn’t that important to me to express myself. I just took it as it was and accepted it. Only within the last 4 years have I realized the growing frustration within me and my surroundings, as I became unable to truly convey my thoughts and share with the rest of the world.

Coming to college, I rarely ever share my thoughts in class and my peers. I realize that as I share less and less about myself, I have stunted my own growth as a person being prepped to join society. It has become a ruthless cycle where I do not find myself intelligent/interesting enough and worthy enough to share, but the less I share and hold myself back, I keep myself from valuable knowledge and growth.

I guess you can say that I am my greatest enemy. The journey from here is to become the change I want to see in myself.

So..here’s to random posts and my own babbling thoughts to let me grow while picking at my own brain and truly conversing with myself. Who am I really? What kind of person have I become and what kind of person will I aim to be?

PS: I find people who post shit like this to be….yeah well I won’t go into detail. This really isn’t meant for the public eye thus perhaps I can spill my own evil thoughts to the world in the privacy of the vast and somewhat anonymous internet….<—-thats probably an oxymoron. Maybe these posts will come back to bite me in the ass.